Wednesday, January 6, 2010

My Hiatus

Ok, so it has been a long time since I have blogged.  So here is the short of a long story and why I am taking a break.  I am pretty positive I will resume my blogging once again I just need some time.

Yes the rumors are true, I am going through a little depression right now.  Yes I am getting help for it.  Yes I will be okay.  Yes my husband still loves me.  I like to point out the fact that I had 4 kids and 1 miscarriage and NEVER suffered any post-pardum depression.  This is the FIRST time in 13 years (can you believe it?) that I have ever had a problem such as this.  We will make it through.  With the help of the Lord, modern medicine, and family we will make it through.  So yes if I seem a little down it's cause I am.  If you are wondering where "chipper ole' charity" went?  Well she is still here somewhere, we are just working on getting her back out here.

So no comments on being sorry for me ok???  That isn't what I want to hear and it will just make me mad.  I am okay and I am working through it.  My sisters are helping, most of the time, JUST KIDDING!!  My husband still loves me and my kids think I am lazy and sleep a lot and let's be honest right now that is a pretty good description.  Oh and I did loose my job on Monday, so that did not help much either, and now my van is permanetly out of commission.

 So now it is literally hour by hour for me.  If I do not have a reason to move or do something I don't .  Right now I am getting kids ready for school then I will probably hit teh bed again.  Why you ask??  Well doesn't it sound like the best thing to do??  It does to me.

I will be back.  I know I will.  This cannot last forever.  That's what I tell Scott and I think he believes me, well I hope he believes me.

Thanks for understanding guys.

3 comments:

highlyirritable said...

Charity, I am glad you are approaching this with such clarity of spirit and optomism...mostly because you are right to be. It WILL be better soon. Take care of yourself first, and everything will fall into place.

Amber said...

You'll be ok baby-cakes.. I'm sure i'll need to clean out my purse again in a week or 2 and you'll get another care package.. :)

vcsings said...

Post-Christmastime blues can hit this time of year on top of everything else. Remember... This too shall pass. You are stronger than you think! Keep praying for help and doing all you can, and one day you will wake up and be on the other side of all this. Love you!